Its obvious that in order to elicit change, one has to make an effort to step out of one’s comfort zone. No-one is denying this. Quite often the measures that one needs to take are so simple, so obvious and ordinary and yet, they become this unattainable quest and seemingly impossible. It is only when one takes that first step that one can look back and realise that it only requires a simple decision. However, just stepping out once doesn’t effect any lasting changes or benefits. The key is to continue along this new route until it becomes commonplace and…
Year: 2018
WISDOM
To know the will of God is the highest of all wisdom. When we come to the end of ourselves, we come to the beginning of God. Billy Graham Rest in peace, great man.
The legend about the wandering Jew who was suffering the punishment of eternal suffering is very true. In the same way, there is a legend about a man who was punished by being given a life without any suffering. Leo Tolstoy
THE WHEELS OF THE BUS
Sometimes the pool is empty and there is nothing inside. This leads to some dangerous and destructive behaviour in the life of an addict because it is invariably accompanied by a plethora of negative, guilt-ridden, self-doubting inner conversations that only serve to exacerbate and escalate an already unhealthy situation. Yesterday was the same and tomorrow will invariably follow suite. If I know all this, then why don’t/can’t I jolly well do something about it? If I look at it objectively, I get so irritated with myself for this indulgent and useless behaviour and the fact that I haven’t the gumption…
SMILE OF THE DAY
I have problems flown in fresh daily wherever I am. Richard Lewis
GOLDILOCKS
If I had straight hair, I would have swum more in the sea, in rivers, lakes and pools. I would have gone kayaking, white-river rafting, definitely spent more time on speedboats or open-top cars. I could have been an Olympic swimmer, a surfer-chick, worked with animals in rain-forests or lived in Seattle. I would have been more impulsive and impetuous, would definitely have ventured outside more and I wouldn’t have made certain choices based around the weather forecast. If my hair was straight I wouldn’t have to spend half of my allotted baggage weight allowance on hair-dryers and straighteners. I…
FOOD FOR THOUGHT
I HAVE A CHOICE This morning I woke up and I was feeling somewhat low. Inexplicable given that I have nothing to feel depressed about ( other than my current apathy ). As always, my choices for the day are exclusively governed by my eating issues. After a larger breakfast than usual ( a few extra slivers of fruit ) I now had this compunction and compulsion to ‘ work it off ‘ – hence the notion of a slightly longer walk than normal. Together with this is the thought that I need to replenish stocks of some of the…
THE KINDNESS CHALLENGE
As has happened numerous times in my life, more times than I could ever calculate, my desire to successfully implement and execute the desire to follow a programme or challenge to myself has backfired. It was all a bit of a damp squib. Not that the earnest desire and good intentions weren’t genuine. They always are but in the end, everything I set out to do takes a backseat to my obsession with food, my rituals and my repeated behaviour. I’m talking specifically about the 30 day Kindness Challenge and the 7 day Kindness quest I set myself. In the…
FOUR WALLS
Every second is a struggle. I won’t apologise for it. Its my struggle and my cross to bear. Do I choose this struggle? Could you argue that it is a direct result of the choices I have made and I am therefore directly responsible and culpable for any suffering that I incur? However, whatever, whenever, – its still happening and real to me . It may not compare , even in the smallest way , to the raw and intense suffering of those with REAL problems but what makes any suffering more real or viable than the next? People with…
SURVIVAL!!
Since admitting to my obsession with food I have been wondering if we aren’t all capable of being somewhat more interested and invested in our food consumption than is considered healthy or necessary. There is a global epidemic of obesity and its related health implications. Would those who over-consume have the same unnatural preoccupation with food as do those who under-consume? This got me thinking about the role of food throughout the ages, the value placed on it and the means of locating/ purchasing/ finding this life-sustaining commodity. I thought it might be interesting to draw up some comparisons/differences between…