Today has been a bad day. No different to many hundreds, if not thousands of days like it in my past, but perhaps I am just more aware of what I do thus heightening my negative self talk and disappointment in myself. I have struggled to focus or concentrate on anything , have felt restless and somewhat anxious. Most days I am just numb. I operate on rote – its Groundhog Day over and over again. Being alone exacerbates and increases the behaviour but I am not forced to seek isolation. It’s something I have always been drawn to and…
Month: January 2018
PEARLS
Though I may harm my body, nothing can harm my soul.
THE REAL QUESTION
Safari – 18 Jan 2018 at 16:51 I read this article in The Times this morning and it stopped me in my tracks. I have been telling myself for years that I need to put on weight in order to be healthy. 2017 was an extremely challenging year for me health-wise and for my family anyway, there was this tacit assumption that my health issues were related to my low body weight and choices I have made over the years regarding my diet. So for me, that elusive , pie in the sky blanket statement that so many of…
MY STRENGTH
my strength
PROCRASTINATION
” Prayer is not our most natural response to the world. Left to our own impulses, we will always want to do something else before we pray. “ Henri Nouwen
AVOIDANCE
Avoidance, as defined in the Oxford Living Dictionary, is a noun meaning ‘ The action of keeping away from or not doing something ‘. Expert , adjective, is described as ‘ having a great deal of skill in a particular area ‘. I am expert in avoidance
RAISE THE ALARM!
I watched a trespassing cat in my garden in France this afternoon as it clumsily ( it was a rather portly cat )attempted to stalk the little tits that frequent my bird-feeder. The birds immediately sent out a chorus of warning signals until the danger had passed. Wouldn’t it be amazing if humans did likewise, rallying round each other, looking out for each other , constantly vigilant and issuing warnings whenever the slightest hint of danger seemed apparent. So often we become insular, looking the other way, scared to offend or interfere, looking after our own but neglecting our neighbour.…
WHEN DOES THE PENNY DROP?
What does it take to finally elicit change? How many warnings, negative incidents, anxiety fuelled moments of panic and despair do we need to experience before we let go of unhealthy practices? Why do we self-sabotage our lives until we reach a point of desperation? Do we have to reach that point before we are ready to implement radical measures to undo past behaviour? These are all questions that lie unanswered because I think it’s different for all people. Just as a conversion to faith may be instantaneous and dramatic for some, it can be more subtle and gradual…
Small Steps
“ Let your hopes, not your hurts, shape your future “ Robert H Schuller
A FRESH START
Hi, I’m Belinda. I have decided to start a blog, primarily for me as I hope that this will incentivise me and hold me accountable for some very necessary changes in my life. I emphatically believe in freedom of choice and we all have to accept the consequences of choices in our lives that haven’t necessarily been the best for us. This is very normal behaviour and when we realise that certain choices are impacting negatively on our behaviour, you’d think we would move away from those choices, wouldn’t you? WRONG! Sometimes we get so caught up and stuck…