Today has been a bad day. No different to many hundreds, if not thousands of days like it in my past, but perhaps I am just more aware of what I do thus heightening my negative self talk and disappointment in myself. I have struggled to focus or concentrate on anything , have felt restless and somewhat anxious. Most days I am just numb. I operate on rote – its Groundhog Day over and over again. Being alone exacerbates and increases the behaviour but I am not forced to seek isolation. It’s something I have always been drawn to and…