CHALLENGING CHANGE, FITNESS, Mental, Physical, PRACTICAL STEPS

FROZEN- figurative or literal ?

1st March 2018

The word ‘ habit ‘ is sometimes a kinder terminology than ‘ addiction ‘. However, in my case, saying that I have habits is a form of denial because what I actually have is an addiction. This was never more apparent to me than this morning. I had already started to fret about my daily routine/ritual/call it what you will , last night. The tussle began whilst I was eating my dinner. I ‘ over-did ‘ it and ate, horrors of horrors, TWO poached eggs with my 4 brussel sprouts, 2 florets of broccoli, spoonful of corn and slice of butternut. Its…

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FITNESS, Friends and Family, Mental, RELATIONSHIPS

LETTERS

28th February 2018

How we communicate says so much about who we are. How much of a part does nature play in our natural inclinations and our modus operandi? Surely the way we have been nurtured and raised has a bigger influence but as we develop as adults, will our inborn, inbred instincts rise again to the fore and play a major role in our personalities and lives again with a tussle between the learned behaviour and that which is intrinsic to our fundamental core? Whether it was nature or nurture in my case, I know not. What I do know is that…

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CHALLENGING CHANGE, Friends and Family, PRACTICAL STEPS, Spiritual, With God

NEW HORIZONS

22nd February 2018

Its obvious that in order to elicit change, one has to make an effort to step out of one’s comfort zone. No-one is denying this. Quite often the measures that one needs to take are so simple, so obvious and ordinary and yet, they become this unattainable quest and seemingly impossible. It is only when one takes that first step that one can look back and realise that it only requires a simple decision. However, just stepping out once doesn’t effect any lasting changes or benefits. The key is to continue along this new route until it becomes commonplace and…

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Spiritual

WISDOM

21st February 2018

To know the will of God is the highest of all wisdom. When we come to the end of ourselves, we come to the beginning of God. Billy Graham Rest in peace, great man.

Spiritual
20th February 2018

The legend about the wandering Jew who was suffering the punishment of eternal suffering is very true. In the same way, there is a legend about a man who was punished by being given a life without any suffering. Leo Tolstoy

CHALLENGING CHANGE, Emotional, FITNESS, PRACTICAL STEPS

THE WHEELS OF THE BUS

20th February 2018

Sometimes the pool is empty and there is nothing inside. This leads to some dangerous and destructive behaviour in the life of an addict because it is invariably accompanied by a plethora of negative, guilt-ridden, self-doubting inner conversations that only serve to exacerbate and escalate an already unhealthy situation. Yesterday was the same and tomorrow will invariably follow suite. If I know all this, then why don’t/can’t I jolly well do something about it? If I look at it objectively, I get so irritated with myself for this indulgent and useless behaviour and the fact that I haven’t the gumption…

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CHALLENGING CHANGE

GOLDILOCKS

16th February 2018

If I had straight hair, I would have swum more in the sea, in rivers, lakes and pools. I would have gone kayaking, white-river rafting, definitely spent more time on speedboats or open-top cars. I could have been an Olympic swimmer, a surfer-chick, worked with animals in rain-forests or lived in Seattle. I would have been more impulsive and impetuous, would definitely have ventured outside more and I wouldn’t have made certain choices based around the weather forecast. If my hair was straight I wouldn’t have to spend half of my allotted baggage weight allowance on hair-dryers and straighteners. I…

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CHALLENGING CHANGE

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

15th February 2018

I HAVE A CHOICE This morning I woke up and I was feeling somewhat low. Inexplicable given that I have nothing to feel depressed about ( other than my current apathy ). As always, my choices for the day are exclusively governed by my eating issues. After a larger breakfast than usual ( a few extra slivers of fruit ) I now had this compunction and compulsion to ‘ work it off ‘ – hence the notion of a slightly longer walk than normal. Together with this is the thought that I need to replenish stocks of some of the…

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PRACTICAL STEPS, RELATIONSHIPS, Things around me

THE KINDNESS CHALLENGE

13th February 2018

As has happened numerous times in my life, more times than I could ever calculate, my desire to successfully implement and execute the desire to follow a programme or challenge to myself has backfired. It was all a bit of a damp squib. Not that the earnest desire and good intentions weren’t genuine. They always are but in the end, everything I set out to do takes a backseat to my obsession with food, my rituals and my repeated behaviour. I’m talking specifically about the 30 day Kindness Challenge and the 7 day Kindness quest I set myself. In the…

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